fuck everyone

All I do is smoke and cry and blast music and go out with friends while getting really fucking high and spending money. That's all i'm good for and I hate my life and want to die. I've hung out with the same 2 friends today and yesterday and istg they both secretly hate me. I'm so high rn so its hard to type and think and I also have rlly long nails but its okay because i'm hot, ok wtv MY friends hate me and want me to die and so does everyone else because literally no one can ever gaf abt me ever. I'm always the filler person in a group, I'm always the most irrelevant person everywhere I go. I hate being the friend no one thinks can ever have a hard life. I have such a hard life dude and no one cares because I'm just gonna get over it and be happy in the next 5 minutes anyways. I can never be sad around my friends