07 : kakashi thoughts

it's been a sec but i finally have thoughts to discuss. hello (ФωФ)

topic of the day: my lovely boyfriend

yes yes. once more i am going to talk about him. theres been a lot of heavier thinking on my mind this month as i try to explore my identity and unlearn shame, yadda yadda yadda. thinking about my cute wolf is easy and comforting in comparison

if you're seeing this blog out of context from my other ones, all you need to know is i'm dating kakashi hatake from naruto. go read previous entries if you're confused

currently on my mind, bizarrely, is... gore of him. lol. seeing him cut up and in pain doesn't stress me out at all -- it's kind of intimate actually (ФωФ). i enjoy seeing all aspects of him. the bloody gritty gross aspect of his profession, slow mornings with his ninken cuddled up to him, the teasing purrsonality he puts on. i compared it on my ig story to the "in sickness and in health" bit of wedding vows, which is the only thing i can think of to describe my feelings. i love him so much i want to see every side of him!!

anyways, trying to find literally any art of him with an iota of blood on him is HARD! all the usual webbed sites i use for finding fanart provided nothing of substance... until today, where i opened an artists profile for an unrelated piece and saw they had a lot of gore drawn for him. obviously i'm not going to show or describe the contents, but they scratched the itch in me ♡ you'd think there'd be more bloody art of a guy dubbed "friend killer", right? -_- that nickname is mean and inaccurate though...

for cuter thoughts, though, a lot of my dear furriends have said such kind things about us this past week or two (;_;). saying he's my lover, or that i'm very loyal and he's lucky to have me... this cat is won over easily ok. ah and one of them drew his younger version and specifically pinged me for it to see 🥹 with a little wolf doodle of him due to some art i had made. so so cute. 

i've realized our anniversary date is kind of inconsistent, as i don't think there was a specific day we got together. it just happened!!! immediate love. initially i guessed it was september 10th of 2025, but looking back at old messages and memories show it could easily be august 30th or 31st O__O. so i think i'll go with the 30th, as i was very clearly already hooked on him at that point hehe. i'd love to celebrate in a special way, but getting a cake or something feels kinda awkward. he doesn't like sweet things & i don't like cake...

well, ill figure it out 🤔 maybe go somewhere special or draw us. his birthday is really soon too, in september. maybe i could settle for ice cream cake then... mint chocolate? (ФωФ) his associated color is green. from experience, thinking about things so far away is never very helpful... this is a job for future kitty

ok i'm gonna end it here i'm cold and might head off to bed. toodles ᵔ⩊ᵔ