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I HIGH KEY HATE BEING A WAITER, BRAHH ToT i'm quickly realizing i'm gen just not built for dealing with unnecessary attitude and pressure.. i've already cried a hand full of times and i'm just becoming more and more quiet tbh. i rlly doubt i'll quite, BUT i might ask my mananger if me and thus other coworker can switch positions ^_^ he does dishes, answers the phones, and prepares wings + dough which seems more up my alley tbh.. but i'm gonna wait until another 2 weeks before i ask bc WHO KNOWS, maybe i'll get more comfortable !! the hardest part is genuinely the customers, like i live in a smaller area and i already know there's gonna be dumb mfs coming back even after complaining about how i suck, GAHHA

but on a better note, I'M FR GETTING MY ART INSPO BACK :D i upgraded my csp to the latest version + i'm getting back into pixel art and i think i just needed to try smt new !! here's a lil doodle i did for for (an idea) of my new sona

also, i got resident evil 5, i can't wait to grind for the leather daddy chris skin, LOLL. i haven't even finished the first revelations yet.. and revelations 2 was the first re game i ever played.. and that was over 5 years atp O_O WHAT CAN I SAYY, i suck at playing shit in order !! also, i'm started a creative forever world in minecraft, which is exciting !! seeing that the actions pack gives us colored lighting was the pushing factor, i already have a whole pinterest board for build inspo X9

some pics of me too btw <3 i'm pretty into fugglers rn, and there's this one i RLLYY want that's pastel pink with a bright pink, bandaged heart that's so mecore, but it's 30 freaking dollars and i'm not dropping that type of money for a stuffed animal, LMFAO

hmm, i think that's it for today !! just gonna focus on getting the motivation to actually start doing stuff again, LOL. i'm actually so srs about it tho, like i've started taking vitamins, doing daily walks, AND making lists for my goals TvT maybe if i force myself to complete one every week, i'll feel better.. idk, we'll see