10/13, 10:02

I feel like when I tell people I see no future for myself they immediately assume I'm just negative or depressed.

I'm not. There's just nothing for me. I have no reason to live past my 20's.

People assume you can just "make a reason" or "just get over it" but it's more complicated than that. I have come to terms with the fact I will never change for others or myself.

You cannot "fix" me. I am a broken, ceramic vase that exploded in the kiln, all you can do now is start over with someone new.

My death is inevitable. I am always two steps to my grave and a step in every direction. I am a star who's been brought to life only to prove another temporary life can be lost.

If the universe wanted me to live I believe it will stop me.

I am not being forced by psychosis to think this, the world has spoken to me and I am only doing what I'm told.

If I do not die, I am to rot. I am a bad person, so my ending is forever the only answer to stop me before I hurt someone else.

I do not need help, I do not need prayers or advice or comfort. I am here to help you, to help the world.

To live in this world any longer than 25 years is to forsake the reason for my birth.