8/11/26

Having anxiety disorder SUCKS so fucking bad, my heart is literally palpitating and hurting rn and I start thinking i'm gonna have a heart attack, which gives me even more anxiety...😭 stop this dude

Anyways I've been working on cleaning my room...slowly...as much as I can with my ADHD. It's mainly just a bunch of clothes mess tbh. I'm drinking a smoothie cause I'm trying to get more calories every day but I have a very low appetite. I've been recovering from an ED, but I'm just not really hungry so it's been hard and I've been losing weight still which is extremely frustrating, but I'm doing my best. I'm only at 1200 ish today so I need to try and eat something else later too. Maybe by cleaning my room my body will get hungry or something? Idk lmao

I cut my hair super short again, like chin length, and I'm SO happy. I love the idea of having long hair, but the moment I feel it on the back of my neck I'm crawling the walls so I feel free now. It's so cute too idk there's something so cute and chic about short hair. 

I went back to school shopping today and got the essential stuff...i'll go to barnes and noble to get some of my favorite pens and other cute stationary. My moms gonna take me on a thrifting day to get new clothes later this week too which is great cause my clothes lowkey suck 😭

Okok byebye