(9/25/26) ok I'm back hi also I took my first ever T shot yesterday yayaya

I have things to say ok? so if you wanna hear them then you can read this blog.. ok? ok.

anyway.

YES so the title is true.. I did in fact needle myself yesterday and OWIEOWIEOWIE I don't like needles.. I fear I also probably didn't hit the layer I needed to hit since it was my.. first time giving myself a shot.. and I'm doing subq because that's easier lallalal

notes for next time ICE THE SPOT TO NUMB IT (and also make my blood cells smaller and more compact so I don't hit them) cuz im a lil bruised now sigh.. I think I almost hit subq like it was THERE and if I had pushed the needle in a little more it would've been that sweet spot bbbuuut that's okay I have next week :3

I feel. so euphoric. like I finished and put a tissue over the spot cuz it was bleeding a bit and I was like "holy shit I just did that I'm finally transitioning" and that was a very good feeling

also I have this fuckass reflex called the vagovasel reflex annnd it pretty much makes you all dizzy and lightheaded and EUGH feeling after getting blood drawn or a shot done and stuffs like that and for like 10 minutes after I felt like dog water but that's okay because I'm used to it and that happens after every shot I get so I was ready for that to happen bleeh.

OH also I was on call with one of my partners which definitely helped cuz I was talking to them and distracting myself while prepping my needle and all that

this feels surreal I'm.. very happy.

yes. ok.