a nothing burger

ok so i have a crush on this dude i first started liking him since like last august. but back then i had a bigger crush on this other dude who i am finally over🎉but now i just like this dude only (sorta....). some reason i cant move on from crushes unless i have a new crush idk why. i really did think i would love the previous crush forever. i think i probably will.. anyway now i really do like this dude but i feel bad cuz i have a staring problem, i js like to look at peoples faces, and i used to stare at him A Lot so he probably thinks im a weird creep which i understand but i caught him looking at me before so IDK i fink he had a crush on me last june or something but im a bit of a dummy so i didnt notice IDK i feel bad when i have a crush on someone cuz i have been the target of the good old "my friend has a crush on you" so i feel like when i like someone it is a bit humiliating for them. IDK this blog does not really have a point or a story i js want to talk about how i feel. i need some romantic action or something i am bored AF and feel ugly AF i feel like you can only embrace the single life after you have had a relationship. i do really want a relationship but i cant stop being weird. its whatever. i cant help but wonder that the reason i dont get compliments or crushes is because im just not attractive, or if it is because i am so attractive its just a fact i dont need to be reminded of and people dont say they have a crush because they are shy or fear being outcast by their friends? well there is my nothing burger i hope you did enjoy it.