A poem.

i caught myself thinking of you

i wonder when it started

i caught myself missing you

and i still tried to deny it

i thought of your hair and your eyes

your lips your smile

i thought “i wonder if he thinks of me every once in a while”

the thought of you scared me

like nothing ever had

the thought of you changed me

made me realize i was treated bad

i caught myself thinking of you again

are my feelings too much for you to handle

or the way my past still haunts me

or maybe the way i only want us to be

who would’ve known that love would cost me

i gave you one thousand reasons to leave

but you always find one to stay

you always find a way

a way to make me smile

a way to make me laugh 

a way to make the butterflies in my stomach do cartwheels as you look into my eyes 

i caught myself thinking of you 

thinking of you as mine

i didn’t try to fight it this time

i didn’t try to hide

instead i thought of what this love will bring us

what challenges will come along this thrilling ride

i caught myself thinking of you

and wondered when it began

i wondered when did you teach me how to love again

i wondered when did i fall for you

when did you get through

through to not only my thoughts but my heart as well

i wondered when you locked up my love

like a prisoner trapped in a cell

i caught myself thinking of you

i wondered when it started

you brought color back to my life

you’re the reason my sky is blue 

the reason the flowers in my garden grew 

when i start to tumble from the sky 

you remind me how to fly

lately i’ve been feeling unalive 

but you bring me back to life

i caught myself thinking of you 

and i realized you never left my thoughts