A vent, of someone I care.

I wish I could hug you for no reason

I don't hold anger for people that hurt me anymore

I talk so much but I never get to find those words that could fit in all I feel. I want to be able to say it all, I would let my heart pour out if it means truly showing what I mean, want, what I love and I desire. I hate this, I feel too much and in the end of the day.. I don't actually show you how much I care because of how much space takes in my mouth, making my words just be sappy stuff I feel like mean nothing. I crave to show you how much I love you, touch you in the most pure way and just be able to show you how much of a genuine care I have for you. I wish I could just touch ur cheek, hug you, touch ur hair, ur dear eyes to look at them and just. Just want to be there when it all seems lost, I want to tell you everything is going to be fine even if they are not in the moment, I want to be there for you how you have been with me, even In times I would never accept such, or when I get difficult with help. You have talked me thru it sometimes yk?
I think I've never really felt this cared for from a partner before heh-

I can't help but feel wanted when I'm with you. You include me quite the much to when you play or in general- I really appreciate it. I don't know how you don't even get weird or embarrassed to say I'm ur partner- I guess I thought it will be the same or close to what others had. I'm just happy to be able to feel calm and widely say everytime that you are my dear without to worry.

I wonder how much of you I haven't seen. I wonder how much more this will last, I'm scared, I'm scared that what If I can't keep up once school starts again. My time always shorts too much for the things I love even when I try to make time for them. I'm worried and I think too much about it daily and- I really don't want to think it. I want to just be here with you as long as we both can. We grow we move on. If you don't want this in some point? Please tell me, I will just let you go. I care about you too much to keep you in a relationship that you don't want anymore. Or that causes you problems. Even if it aches my heart, I will let you go if that means for you to be happy, even if it means with another person too.

I trailed off.

I really like when you are quite bold and direct about stuff, and more when people get you on ur nerves. I haven't really seen you hold and shut up about unrespectful comments like I do sometimes. I think of you of something worth treasuring and hear for everytime. Can't help but see you funny, sweet, bold, expressive in a point.

Now when I look at the night sky, I quite think of you, and I wonder why I haven't seen it in such a long time.
Regalame tus labios rotos, los Quiero besar, los Quiero curar. Los Quiero cauidar, con Todo mi amor. It's a shame we are quite the long apart. I would like to really hug you quite the a long, even to sleep dang. Even tho i'm quite eeerrrrrr..... with my body too. yeah no- prb not the best idea.- I always laugh at the comment of being like a plushie, softc, clingiable, and comfy. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUt. I don't know how it would be for you- and I think I don't want to know either way- HAAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Yeah no,

Btw sing me like 5 more songs hehe
For some reason your voice is, quite comforting to hear at. I wish I could do the same- but because of how BAD my vc is, how horrible I'm at English while speaking- that leds me to stutter the heck out of my words, In how nervous I get for some reason, and the fact I only would do so in a call, throws me off a window. SoooooOOOOOOOOoooooooOooOoo. I just really have to try, It wouldn't hurt..... that much. It's all excuses in how shy I feel about it, and I really hate saying shy abt this- god help me.