About my old band

WARNING:Sorry if this is sooo cringe, in 2023 I was 13 years old,corny and stupid

So, I liked DSBM and black metal a lot (I still do), I had like an obsession on a band called Lifelover,like,AN OBSESSION LITERALLY, I have all their CDs, I literally knew all information about that band, I had like a few things of merch and etc...

Well,then I knew some guys that also liked DSBM and black metal,and we did a proyect called "Void". These guys were like 15-18 years old and some did questionable things like drink and do dr*gs AND KNOWING IN THAT TIME I WAS DEPRESSED so being with that type of people wasnt a good thing. When we did the band I was the guitarrist, but well... I wasnt that good. I also did like the mayority of the lyrics that was like "UUUGHHH IM DEPRESSED AAND ANGRYYYY UGGHH *insert some corny sht*". Then the fucking vocalist fucked up his vocals,he ruined his vocal cords,like,reallly bad (and now he sounds like a grandpa/jk). After that I became the vocalist and main guitarrist of the band. We only did some covers of songs like Ms salmonella, Instrumental Aslyum, Ea lord of the depths and more. We had a studio  where we practice and so,one day I went like normally BUT WITH LITERALLY FRESH SH CUTS SHOWING, LIKE WTF I WAS THINKING. I keep wondering why these guys were keep being friends with me after that. In april 2024 we composed like 2 songs and then in late July other song. We wanted to relased them with some covers we did,but we didnt have a logo nor a cover for a album,and how I was an artist I agreed to make the cover. The logo and the name was a bit off, so I asked to change the name to "brutalism void" and they agreed because it sounded better. Well...the cover, THE MOST CORNIEST AND WORST COVER I DID.... It was a photo of fresh sh cuts...mine....when I was like 14 years old... The album was called "Misanthropy", I did a CD version and a cassete version in a edit program

THANKS GOD WE NEVER RELASED IT!!!!

In October 2024 the band dissolved.

This year I saw and ex-bandmate of this proyect and he said "Oh, are u still alive?? I thought you k*ll yourself like a year ago", then we talked and laughted about the band and how corny we were.

Now Im better(im NOT depressed and I dont do sh anymore) ,im 16 years old and im NOT corny like when I was 13 years old.