am i that unattractive?

ever since middle school ive been reminded of how unattractive i am compared to other girls. now im in high school and i still dont have a boyfriend. almost all of my friends have had or are in a relationship except me. i really liked one of my friends but he seems to show no interest in me. im insecure about my weight because my brother used to call me fat ever since i was 9. i also think im ugly because no guy has other looked at me or called me pretty (other than some of my guy friends) but guys would often bully me and often say "oh my friend likes you" but in the "oh shes ugly im gonna embarass my friend and say he likes her" kind of way. i also often watch rom-coms and then find myself upset because im not in a romantic relationship. i want a boyfriend so bad i just feel so lonely.