Asking for things is hard

I have no idea why, but asking for things is so hard for me. It’s not cause I don’t need them, but I feel like I’m being selfish or greedy, even if I need it. I’ll often end up accidentally spending too much time thinking about if I should ask for help until it’s too late, or just not asking at all.

Even if I’m asking someone I’m close with I feel like such a jerk. Like today I asked my friend for something that I’ve been mulling over for at least a month. He was incredibly sweet about it and of course it took barely any time, but I still feel like a jerk in some capacity. I waited so long, they could’ve been talking to other more important people than me.