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I was straight up isolated by my peers, I tried getting into contact with one I thought was a friend a couple years back and he didn't even remember me. I was in the same school as this guy for 5 years and we had the same teachers and he doesn't remember me? I've had this issue on multiple occasions. I often felt like I was just a ghost to these people, just there to observe and nothing else. I have always struggled to interact with people. I also want to get screened but mostly for anxiety since I can't interact or ask people questions without panicking or trying to get someone else to speak for me.

I also forget what im saying in the middle of sentences, stumble over words that I know very well how to pronounce. I don't even want to talk about my procrastination issues. My memory is also very selective and it's not like I don't care I swear I do. I just suddenly can't remember 🙁

I also just feel mentally exhausted all the time and occasionally break down and cry because I'm used to holding in my emotions. 

If you can, try and convince your mom to atleast get you screened for adhd once or twice. I don't have any experience though I'm also undiagnosed. My boyfriend wants me to go in for probably a few things... I also get the ideas of grandeur, feeling peoples eyes on me or like someone's reading my mind. I would run home in elementary because I would get a weird idea that someone was following or watching me. 

I'm rarely alone and when I am I get really paranoid, I think I really need to get that checked out, and you probably do too if you have similar issues. 

Have a good day and hopefully you can get stuff sorted out! I too want an explanation for my behavior. I wish I had one, it would be nice to let people know why I behave the way I do without them thinking I'm crazy or sensitive.