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I feel like this "positive" kind of envy—one that doesn't make you feel worthless or wish harm upon others—can inspire you to improve at a particular skill; this type of jealousy has often motivated me to get up from my chair and create something: to practice, experiment, explore, etc. It's crucial not to let that jealousy turn into something ugly. I used to judge myself every time my work didn't look “right” or “good enough”. Now I realize that even if you are usually "perfect" at something, you must allow yourself to be awful at it sometimes. That is exactly where the learning happens—you see your mistakes, you analyze them, and you grow from them. |
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growing up with an incredibly similar worldview definitely put me in a dark spot for a long time because i never valued what i created and always felt the need to be perfect. now as i get older ive been realizing how genuinely important it is to accept that feeling and use it to instead improve on what im already good at, much like you have. incredibly beautifully written friend. kudos thank you so much! i've always had a perfectionist mindset ingrained into my head very young so it's been a bit hard to break the cycle, but i'm doing my best. even when i make "bad" pieces, sometime later, maybe days or years, i look back and find charm in the care and small details. i wish you nothing but success :) |
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This hits the nail right on the head. I'm pretty sure this ambition, coveting, has been portrayed in lots of media I consume. One Piece, Blue Period... there's the desire to be the best or surpass someone worthy of admiration. I can see it bleeding like a blot of ink into my words, weirdly enough.
I'm happy you feel this way and hope you keep creating.
by chiyara; ; Report