Confused About My Gender Identity

Lately, I’ve been feeling kind of conflicted about my gender identity. I’ve always identified as genderfluid — or at least I thought I did — but now I’m starting to feel like maybe that isn’t really what I am.

I’ve never cared that much about my gender, honestly. I’ve always been okay with any pronouns and I usually don’t care how people see or treat me. But sometimes, even if it’s rare, I feel uncomfortable when I’m treated as female. I’m biologically female, and I even feel a bit uneasy admitting that.

I prefer being seen or treated in a more masculine or neutral way. Most of the time, being treated as female doesn’t really bother me, but there are moments when I feel discomfort or even a bit of dysphoria about my appearance, body, or voice.

I wish I looked more androgynous. I want people to feel confused about what I am. Sometimes I feel like I’d rather not have a gender at all. I don’t feel completely like a woman, but I don’t fully feel like a man either, and that leaves me confused about who I really am.

I like wearing both masculine and feminine clothes, and I wish I could look more androgynous. Sometimes I wonder if I’m genderfluid, non-binary, or maybe something else entirely. The truth is, I still don’t really know what I am. 

😿💔