control

i feel like im not in control of my own life.

i feel like all the choices in my life arent made by me, and i rarely get input.

last night my mom told me that every 3 months im going to my dads house for 4 nights/5 days. she said she needs to time to herself. she said they already made accomidations for the fact i "need" to be with her more. i dont need to be with her more, i never said i did. i dont like my dads house. i dont like being at my dads house. i like being with my dad, but i dont like being at his house.

i didnt want to get upset, because i knew she'd end up making me feel guilty for it. not on purpose, i hope, but i know she'd make me feel guilty. 

i feel like im not mkaing choices based on what i want, but what others want. and when i make choices based on what i want/need i get told im being "annoying" or i get the feeling people think im being difficult.

all someone wants is to be in control of their life, when you take that away chaos erupts. they try to control what they can. leading to tragedy if it goes to far.