day two i guess ??

its been a year since i like lowkey lost my mind for many reasons so i guess ive just been feeling weird all summer .. i want to have a really nice august to make up for my summer slack.. i want to do better like i don't want my sad stuff to be my whole story. i am SO much more than that stupid stuff. im feeling hopeful! i have good friends and enough recourses to do better , i want to do good for future me . i know i didn't care for the future consequences when i was very young and even like .. 2 months ago but im sick of being sick!! i promise im going to do what i can to be better every single day . 

I DONT WANT MY DUMB STRUGGLES TO BE MY STORYYY ik its silly but thats the least interesting thing about me!! i love all kinds of arts , i love music , nail art , LOCAL music , movies , hanging out with friends , going outside , writing , games , the smell of okay cars early in the morning even tho it made me nauseous for years , birthday cake , reuniting with a friend , sucking on chips so i can hear whatever im listening to , putting on my headphones but keeping off half the set to make sure i can hear my friends , rewards points , my siblings , taking the bus , CD'S , bumble bees , mixed drinks , all ten fingers , hair dye , pajamas , backpacks , posters , candid photos of my loved ones , the cold , cowbells , stickers , a hru from a friend , my busted glasses , etc.