disappointing

yesterday i was sent a news post by a friend with whom i have some interests in common. it was an instagram post talking about a japanese actor who had confessed to physically assaulting his ex girlfriend in different occasions. now, i've never been the kind of person who followed actors, all my life i've been more interested in following musicians and that's it, so i cannot say i was a fan of his. but still, it kind of hit me

it might seem dumb for some people, but i've been really attached to fictional characters since always. not to the point where you treat them like a real person, but to the point where you like it so much that you have lots of merch, drawings, etcetera. you get me? well, this guy just happens to interpret my favorite character (like, THE favorite character. my number one) in the live action series and i was so mad

i literally had this guy's pictures (as the character) up on my bedroom's wall. photocards. pins. and from the viewpoint of someone like me, it's just very upsetting that a character that i love so much and to whom i've dedicated so much time is portrayed by (and inevitably related to) an aggressor

now, i just wanted to talk about this because i felt like i needed a space to express my own frustration as a fan, HOWEVER i do not intend to make this about the character or about myself, or diverge from the actual, important point of conversation. this is just so i can talk a little about that small part of me that is feeling this kind of disappointment toward the situation

i mention once again, i wasn't ever a fan on itself, but i did follow him on sns and even planned on supporting his future work as an actor (which of course won't be happening anymore), so i wasn't ever really informed about much on him. turns out, he had a bunch of controversies in the past regarding similar attitudes that i didn't know about. it's such a shame to know i've been following someone like that

i've seen many people defending him, and i'm sorry for them. i can understand how deeply a person that you don't really know irl can impact your life when you admire them, but i simply don't see any way to defend this. you never really know when you could be in the victim's position, and to see other people fiercely defending the person who hurt you would just be heartbreaking and discouraging

we need to believe victims. we need to SUPPORT victims. and we need to make aggressors face REAL and FAIR consequences for their vile actions. please don't ever let your fanatism be bigger than your morals

you never know celebrities. they're not your friends, for sure. so if something like this happens, you have to be rational about it and understand that everything that you've "known" about them could be nothing but a lie. after all, the best they look to the public, the more money they make

i guess that's all i can say in this. i really hope that the victim has a support system to be there for her, and that she can find peace and justice in this moment. i hope that this doesn't just go unnoticed and that he pays for what he did