doing odd things for fun

I’ve always done weird things to entertain myself when I was younger and even nowadays. When my laziness lets me free and I become myself again I like to do whatever I want to make myself feel something.

One of these things is anything fire-related. I like burning candles on my bed. I like incense. I like laying next to fires. I like putting old papers on fire in the woods, I like to put old papers in the fireplace and then feel the glow on my back when I turn my back to the raging flames. I like the treat of everything going up in flames. I like the warmth and the glow and the burn. I like lighters too. 

I also trigger myself on purpose sometimes. Going onto the dark web and going onto forums that I know will trigger my sexual trauma memories just to feel something. Thinking in depth about a triggering concept.

I steal from shops and like to buy Robux with the mysterious bank account connected to my phone (it isn’t mine for some reason). Not serious whatsoever it just makes me feel good. I’m using facepaint I stole from Superdrug for a cosplay rn 

I do more but I can’t remember. I might start running away from my family / staying in the woods way too late. Very entertained by my chips rn