ughh so today i went in to get tested for anxiety and depression now i need to go back (40 min away) in a couple weeks to get tested for ADD and stuff like that ;,( i'm also getting a therapist she seems rlly sweet tho. also she asked about drinking and stuff and my mom told me to be 100% truthful and my mom wasn't allowed to leave so i had to tell her how i've done weed and drank it was sooo humilating i was shaking and like jittery for the rest of the afternoon. i don't like when stuff spikes my anxiety like that it kinda ruins my day cause i'm on edge for the rest of the day. luckily my mom doesn't care but it was just rlly embarrasssing cause i've never really been the type to tell my mom about anything. i did lie when she asked if i've evr thought of harming myself cause i have but i rlly don't want my mom knowing that.
ps. not promoting that AT ALL just wanted people to know they aren't alone and it's OKAY to talk about it. if you've never done that, please never start it's horrible. xoxo
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I feel you on the mom thing, especially during the intakes. They never lighten the blow. I mean I see it from their point. They want us to be safe and all. But it still makes me feel uncomfortable. Yk. Especially if they start talking for you
it's just sooo awk i mean my mom is more chill now but i can't help but think about how she used to treat me and i find it rlly hard to break down that wall again. and even if our relationship is better now, every time she drinks i feel like it sets us back 5 years :/
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