For the past few years, I've noticed that I'm acting more and more like the character I grew up with. The similarities between said character and me began to creep me out a lot more than I expected. I'm not sure if I'm just going delusional again, or if my brain wants me to cope by mimicking the bad deeds of a fictional character that holds no value to this hideously desolate place. Maybe I should just succumb to the impending doom that I'm turning slowly just like him. Maybe I could be known as a person who I am not. Maybe I am him in the first place. I hate myself.
I also kicked my cousin in the groin today and stole his birthday gifts. I guess I could consider that as the highlight of my day, but I doubt anyone would even care to read this.
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Gaiety_and_Insanity
It might be that the fictional character is a form of comfort for you? Personality is just how YOU interact with your world, which is why a lot of traumatized people's personalities are coping methods or trauma responses. You might feel unsafe in your environment or generally unwanted, making you connect with characters rather than ppl. I hope you can feel better tho
You might be right, but I didn't particularly find comfort in that character because all I saw was just a reflection of why I hated myself. It's hard to explain, really, I ran out of big words to use, so I'm pretty stumped. Oh, and thanks, 'preciate the support
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Oh I see. Sorry. Well I hope you can figure it out
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