question: does anyone else feel like they're genuinely larping gender? idk. either way it feels like a performance. i don't necessarily mind either one tbh, it doesn't really affect me to be honest. i just kinda want to be able to wear and do and be what i want.
i think in my "soul" (if that ends up being real) im a guy, but i wouldn't mind pretending to be a girl irl forever. at least i dont think. like it wouldn't be devastating. it's not too bad tbh, i like the sense of community. and they've got cool outfits.
(hopefully that doesn't sound like im diminishing it I LOVE YOU WOMEN)
plus, being a guy fully would come with its own problems, most definitely.
maybe im neither.
ohmygod this is too much effort ill think about it later i have a degree to get
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JunebugCrisis
I’m agender and I’ve totally been there, maybe you’d find some insight reading through enby microlabels?
For safety’s sake, i still have to present a specific way in real life. I’ve come to terms with this, as nowadays most day-to-day wear is neutral, but there are moments with familial/formal events where it doesn’t feel like “Cleaning/Dressing up”, it feels like playing pretend. Having to lean so far in to one presentation else people don’t really register me as human the same way they do others, almost like putting on a jester costume. For the most part i’m accepting of my actual body, but i hate the box it is forced into- the Gender it is assigned. I like to say “I am what i was at birth, no body actually knows what that is though” as shorthand lol. I don’t think gender will ever be a factor in the measure of my life. That’s why i specifically say Agender instead of nonbinary- this definition varies, but in my head i guess I read nonbinary as “someone not a man or woman who still feels attachment to their gender” whereas I would rather do away with gender as a concept applied to me completely.
But when it comes to clothing, You Can Do Whatever You Want Forever. You could be a man who likes to wear feminine outfits, You could be an enby with a strong leaning towards one expression, But in the end, you don’t have to put a ton of effort into being one or the other. Genderqueer identities are often specific to each person, and expression a mix of several different cultural factors. In the end, I hope you are able to get to a place where you can explore that without worry if you feel you need to.
sweetivs
apagender maybe? it's a gender where you dgaf about what people refer to you as but idk✌️
Factory Reset 𝄞𝄢
demigirl and demiboy are cool definitions that could work for you!
Gaiety_and_Insanity
I just collect genders. I like it? MINE. Life is a construct do as you please
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i feel exactly the same ?? the other day i was talking with a friend ABT top surgery and i was saying how if it was an easier process (no nhs queue, recovery time, having to travel) i would but i don't feel strongly inclined enough to bother atm and he was VERY confused.
iv also talked to a few cis female friends about how they would feel if they had to get a mastectomy for health reasons and i was actually kind of shocked that they felt Rly strongly that it would be traumatic to lose that part of their body because it feels like it makes them Them
i just find it crazy that people experience gender in such a strong way @_@ cz like u said I think there are aspects i enjoy of identifying as either lol i don't have very strong opinions on the matter . iv just been rocking with the queer label for years bc i don't care to interrogate it further HAHA
(Also holy ramble sorry)
wait that's so strange (to me) with what ur friends said, i gen never would've thought of it that way (traumatic?!?), it's crazy how people's experiences are so different
also u are not rambling, i get u completely twin
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