02 : weird furry stuff

content warning: discussion of furry art that is probably fetish/kink content, but my own thoughts are SFW. no pictures are included

i have therapy in 30 minutes so im gonna be writing this as im on the way there... lets see if i can finish in time. well actually i might wait to finish off the post after im done with therapy so i can talk about it

currently feeling: tired :(! i went to bed late & struggled getting to sleep. have been drinking some monster but i dont feel very awake from it... might stop for coffee

topic of the day: weird furry stuff! i love weird furry stuff! the weirdfur tag on tumblr carries me and gentle cradles me in its arms. whenever i browse the tag i really see that im not living to my fullest potential. popcorn dragon that inflates like a bag when its placed in the microwave. instant noodle cat that you pour water into the stomach of and eat...

i really like the feelings those sort of things provide. like, "someone puts boiling water in you to cook the noodles in your stomach" is a pretty unique thing, so you get unique feelings. idk i think that sort of thing would feel really good, but when the noodles are all gone you're either empty and sad (renewable noodles) or dead. but its not bad to eat the noodles if thats what the creature was made for and enjoys. kind of like that pissing on a flower to save its life meme.

my nonhumanism is probably why i love these concepts so much. transformation has never really captivated me (somehow), but i really like when the creature is already an object and hasnt changed. it was just made that way... probably because despite my human flesh, ive always been this way too. there wasnt any sudden transformation or change overnight that turned me into a cat. not that transformation is bad, it just doesnt have that same charm?

i dont really care for all things related to inanimate objects gaining sentience / life, moreso just specific things. being connected to a human or other being, plushes having feelings, or computers being aware of the users are some i can think of that interest me. something like toy story isnt my thing, probably because it involves having to hide your true self. why? who made it that way? have you always been hidden from the start, or did it become suppressed? theres too many questions for me there. i like the simple answer of "they're alive because thats how the world made them". a common fact about the world, i guess

ok i had to do some nonsense inbetween writing this but its time for therapy so im just gonna sign off. probably wont be much to write about for it anyways. toodles

A/N: this is a reupload of blog entry from a different site 🐾