Family

I guess this is just a short vent :')

I'd always gotten A's and B's in school, last year I missed one quarter and received a C+ in English and my father was extremely disappointed even though I had gotten A's and B's in everything else, which really just messed me up because I was hopping he'd still be proud of me for trying but instead I got a lecture and was grounded for it. So, since the beginning of the grade, up from last year, it's quarter 4 now, and I only got honor roll in the first quarter, and I understand that's why my parents are disappointed in me, but every day from then on, my parents have yelled at me about my failing grades. Earlier today, I was extremely tired and not hungry, so I didn't eat, but my father kept telling me to eat (even though I had said I wasn't hungry at all). Then we went shopping for my mother (for Mother's Day). Once we got everything for my mother, my father went off on me because I was moody (which I was slightly, I just wanted to go home and sleep), and the entire ride home, I was crying because he just kept going off on me, and once we got home. I went to my room to really just let myself cry. My mother got me out of my room just so she and my father could yell at me about the way I dress, my friends, and my grades. My father yelled at me that he wanted the "old" me back, the one he "loved" to hang out with, and then said he wanted all my baggy clothing gone. I just feel worthless; my parents don't see me as their daughter anymore, they just call me a screw-up. They only care about my grades and not even about my own well-being anymore. I just feel like they'd be better off if I were gone. I don't understand why my father went after my clothing, though, because it's nothing exposing, it's just very baggy, and that's what I'm comfortable in since I struggle with my own self-image. Sorry for the vent, I guess it's just getting to be too much for me now <3