Question (?)

Okay so is it normal to feel a very very strong hatred for someone? I'm not talking about like "I hate that guy". I mean hatred so strong even the sound of then makes you wanna puke or like the touch of them makes you wanna peel your skin off? This is how I feel about my brother. I mean the brother who was born after me, I've always felt this way since like age 6-8 or smth. I just really don't like him at all. Nothing he does makes me smile. Every good thing that happens to him makes me hate him more and I most of the time blame my failure on him (in a way, it is his fault) anyway, hate him. Okay back on track, every thought I've ever had surrounding him has been negative and absolutely begging something bad to happen to him, sometimes I just kind of rewind time and trade out his life for my youngest brother, I k ow it's very horrible and almost selfish to think that way but at the same time I really could care less what happens to him. As long as I continue eating and sleeping I could not give a rats ass if he's sick, needs a kidney replacement, or just needs help. I hate him. I once told a friend this and she called me AM but I don't think so. But if I did have such abilities I'd probably make him go through everything I did but worse just to make him really get how much I hate him. In reality I'm not supposed to be near him it my dum bass aunt somehow got the court to let her have me and him in the same house (stupid) even after the many times me and him fought. Alot if not all our fights ended in blood, tears (on his part, not mine), and broken or sprained bones. Anyway I just wanted to ask a small question and yap about hoe much I hate my brother. (Random thought: I said something similar to this and someone called me "Billy badass" lol) anyway after this I'm writing about other people I utterly hate