23-09-26 losing my cat

so today around 8am I woke up I always go outside to pat my gorgeous cat holly I noticed the house was unusually clean and then my mum told me my cat passed away I felt like my whole world was collapsing I grew up by her, like they got her in 2014 I was so young then and now she's dead I miss her so much and I love how every morning she would meow loudly at me when I go outside I seriously cannot imagine a world without her she is the best I miss her so much she was always there for me. I mean I do not know what I can do without her she brightened my day:( I have stuff to look forward too just I do not know how I can expect to be fine and jolly without my kitty