Loss

Each and every day has been a bust in the sense that I simply just cannot assimilate into society in the sense that I am very emotionless and neutral I can never form meaningful relationships with anyone but the worst thing about all this in the end is loss. I have lost so much in my time alive on this world and it hurts more knowing I will probably die alone and miserable with no one by my side to call a partner. It's truly sickening that this world everyone is in their own bubble, but when you try to insert yourself to others bubbles it ends up with people pushing you to the side and deeming you unworthy of friendship if you even show a miniscule of weirdness and abnormality (Autism, ADHD, etc) this world is cruel and the loss I've gone through with the people who I deemed friends and people who used to love and care for me hurts and pierces my heart so much I cry every night like a BITCH wishing it were different, wishing my circumstances were different and I was normal by societal standards. People in the end are truly evil and will lie straight to your face and when all is said and done find someone else to spend their lives with. It is jarring how horribly common this is but how do we go on if we have nothing in the end? No support system? No love? Nothing. Answer me that. 

Words of the Day: Boys don't cry.