FEAR.txt

from how much ive done, im trying to fix what ive damaged really
i still overthink and worry, i judge every action i do and myself, whenever its my face or behaviour and

i dont know

its getting worse somehow, i wish it wasnt really

i dont want to lie to make others happy, and when i try to calm them down or even try, it only goes south.
it doesnt make me a good person, but it doesnt make me a bad person either.
i have no idea what was going in my mind

id be lying if i said i knew and id hate if i did.
this was mostly my fault, but i acknowledged it i guess and admitted of my lies, there are people who are better off with lying but because they want to save themselves.
i lied because i wanted.

whenever its wealth, affection or anything. i cant help
but instead of love, i hate.

-- NOTE : I couldnt find a better category, sorry :(