I've always been an obsessive person. I was looking through my camera roll today and found tons of screenshots of messages between girls I've had feelings for. Old photos of them, their house on a map, who they follow. I want to know everything about them.
Watching Zombie Stage seems to have brought it back to me: my love for obsession. Seeing Sua break in to infect herself through/by Mizi made my stomach flutter. Reading what other people thought about the scene made me confused. People didn't find that attractive? Not even the slightest bit? Im sure it's a part of my depression, but I can't seem to wrap my head around how that's off-putting for people.
Consumption is another aspect I find incredibly... romantic? erotic? Vampires seducing then feeding on people they grow close to, regardless of gender, is sort of beautiful. Cannibalism is of course another one. It's edgy, but I like it. I can never be physically close enough to those I love; I want to eat them or mesh our skin together into something ugly, so it's only us forever. I want to feel their raw bone bump mine as I slip into their ribcage and fall asleep.
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misskei
i feel this so deeply because to me if i love someone i need to know everything about them, it's almost a problem. i think about what i don't know.
im also obsessed with learning people's autonomy. if i can know your autonomy, i know everything you do, and are capable of.
i feel so cringy talking about how obsessed i can get when i want to know someone.. lol
this.. it’s so embarrassing i feel like an edgy teenager whenever i talk about it. like “i wanna feel their guts >:3” it’s not me trying to be cool and violent, it’s a romantic thing to me! i want to know ALL of them!
by Himejoshi_4life; ; Report
EXACTLY YOU GET ME
by misskei; ; Report
gutted
I feel sortveee the same way, like I always find everyone boring or lame, especially since I live in a small town, so when i find a rare person who I actually like, I end up obsessing over them