Feelings and Sexuality

Recently, one of my closest friends ended his one-year relationship with his girlfriend. She had some personality issues and could be pretty mean at times, along with other things I'd rather keep private.

For those who don't know me, my name is Matthew, and I'm bisexual. The thing is... I've had a bit of a crush on this friend for a long time. I love him a lot, and our connection just feels different from any other friendship I've ever had.

Right now he's feeling pretty lonely, and I've been spending a lot of time with him. But honestly? I'm really confused by the way he acts.

He's incredibly sweet, but sometimes it feels like he wants something more with me... and other times it feels like he doesn't. I can't figure him out at all. I know that's just kind of how he is, but it's still confusing. Whenever I try to get closer to him, he pulls away. Yet deep down, it feels like there's something else there.

Maybe it's all in my head, but he has admitted before that I do something to his heart.

I'll probably post updates about our story here.

To start from the beginning, I first met him through a mutual friend. Back then, we argued all the time and I constantly insulted him. Years later, we ended up reconnecting, and somehow we became really close, really fast.

Unfortunately, because of some friends of mine, we drifted apart and ended up fighting. When we finally started talking again, he was already dating that girl. At one point, he told me he felt trapped in that relationship.

Should I continue this story?

Another Story: An Old Relationship

This one is about a girl.

Our relationship was honestly perfect. No fights, no arguments. It was all affection, kisses, and genuine care from both sides.

Then, out of nowhere, she decided to end things with me.

I couldn't understand why.

Later, I found out that her cousin — someone who had done terrible things to her — manipulated her into breaking up with me.

Recently, she finally told me the truth. For a moment, I thought maybe I had another chance.

Yeah... I was wrong.

Now she's talking to another guy.

I told her how I really felt, and after that I decided not to message her anymore.

And that's it.

It's over for good.

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