First Blog, kinda nervous

Heya! 

uhm so this is kinda awkward T-T

wtv, I´m Jinx and i´ll try to post daily blogs here! 

Soo I was feeling rlly bad today lol, i slept like 3 or 4 hours again. Idk I just really don´t feel like sleeping, like i can spend my time so much better!!

My bsf, Rose, and I had to do some costumes for a play, it was fucking unbearable. I jst wanted to leave. So I kinda cvt myself again but it´s really not that deep.

Rose told me that I´m developing an addicition but i don´t think so. I can stop whenever I want.

wtv lets stop with the depressing stuff. I saw my crush for the first time in like a month & holy shit they´re so gorgeous like DAMN. They were super nice!! I went home at 3pm and then just kinda rot away in my room. Why socialize when you can isolate?

I read some ao3 and played some games but i was really fucking bored. Rose and me called for a while and then I had to go cook dinner. Now I´m listening to megadeth and writing this. Sry, i´m really really bad at this :x

Uhm also happy pride! I think i´ll just go ahead and rant about some shit now. 

Holy shit i NEED a good ao3 mellodramattic fanfic with like ALOT of angst. give me EVERYTHING. like just get me every mental illness in the book, write 200k words and lemme binge it. I love reading sosososo much, izt helps me get out of the real world. I hate the real world. I don´t understand how any1 is willing to ´live in the moment´when they could be watching shows, reading or like just get into another reality some way. I useds to just dissociate for hours on end, imagining  some ficitonal world in like VERY great detail. I wish i could go back to my prime </3

I need a new chapter of thrash net sosososo bad i am so invested in it. Like the writing, characterisation, plot, story, it´s just so devestaitingly perfect, i´m gonna die. I need more. Maybe I should writing my own stories... 

Probably not a very good idea. I can imagine things but when it comes to writing them down, i suc SO bad.

Well wtv, I´ll read a bucnh of angsty one shots now. 

Love you all, Stay safe <3

ByeeXD