gay sadness

Halloween, fall time and my birthday are soon and I'm genuinely wishing I had a boyfriend so badly. 

Me and that one dude could've really been something, I don't know what happened between us I guess the feelings he thought he had, just went away? 

I really liked him too, but as per usual, I fall for people too fast and too hard. Dude he drew us together as furries!!! and literally told me to kiss him next time I saw him but just never gave me an actual chance to do so. I probably would've done anything just for that "relationship" to actually workout, I'll most likely have more mlm relationship chances soon in my life. 

It could've and should've been. For now I can only listen to the wise words of Robert Smith from The Cure (favorite band, then p!atd).