gomen

got home and clicked on a notif calling me disgusting but my heart sank when I saw that the blog had been removed 

I used spacehey for the worse part of half a year to rant and journal on top of physical writing, and when I got banned every single one of my entries including my private ones were deleted I only managed to save like two but that hurt a lot and put me in a really really bad spot

so when I thought I got banned on here even though I haven't been on here long that just crushed me dude

I know its my fault for getting like this; spilling too much about my life and telling people what an asshole I am but it really does help to spill the beans to the void of unread blogs

anyway saving all my blogs from now on and thank you def3ct for having mercy on my sorry self

I'll try to get better but not sure why I am