Having low empathy + NPD is weird

I don’t really like how people with low empathy and NPD (narcissistic personality disorder) are always depicted as psychopaths or overly toxic people.

I don’t **want** to have shitty empathy or always feel like I should be better than everyone, but I can’t control it.

It’s not my fault I’m fucked up in the brain, if it was my choice I’d be as nice as I could, but I can’t. I PHYSICALLY can’t. I can’t listen to my friends vent because I’ll either stay completely silent or interrupt them every sentence.

If I was able to, I bet I’d be amazing to vent to, to talk to, but I can’t. Idk, it’s probably just me.