HOW TO GET OVER SOMEONE

Okay, if you've seen my other blogs, you probably already know I really like this person. We definitely don't have the greatest history together, but judging by how they act now, I don't think they hold any grudges.

For some background: my ex-best friend was dating them as a joke while cheating on them, and she was also anonymously bullying them online. I stopped being friends with her because of all that, especially since she'd ignore me whenever I called her out on her behavior and it really hurts me when I get ignored :(

I never really talked to them afterward because I felt really guilty (which, honestly, I should have), but I didn't have the guts to tell them about it :/. Eventually, I became friends with one of their friends, but that friend told me that huzz thinks I was the one anonymously bullying them. So I ended up exposing what their girlfriend had actually been doing.

If I were in their position, I honestly don't think I'd ever want to be friends with me after everything that happened. But somehow we're... kind of friends now? We barely text at all, but whenever we see each other, we always talk.

The thing is, I don't think they like me the way I like them. They're genuinely such an amazing person. I just wish I hadn't been so stupid in the past.

I'm honestly thinking about distancing myself not completely ghosting them, but maybe avoiding them a little so I can move on. I've been trying, but it's soooo hard. They're incredibly smart, kind, and they have one of the best personalities I've ever met. It's honestly hard to imagine someone not liking them.

But... yeah. I guess that's where I'm at.

(I also woke up from a dream of them laughing and smiling with me :(( JUST RIGHT NOW)

guys am I a hopeless romantic