how to socialize? (am i doing something wrong?)

heyyy, this is gonna be a bit of a rant so.. >.<

a bit of background !!! 

if you guys read my first blog about that one alternative mall then as you might or might not know, i went there again a day after.. 

so basically me n my friend tom had tons of fun however we kinda just had nothing more to do and both of us went back to our homes,

i dont really remember how i met this person but they messaged me on tiktok and i was like "why not get to know this cool person" so we texted a lot and my boyfriend called me after like 2 days that we didnt talk with each other (mind you, not even good morning n good night) 

and so i kinda switched between calling him and texting them..

after that my boyfriend went to sleep and i called that same person i was texting and the call was just.. so off!! it wasnt awkward or anything, i just didnt understand jokes and i just felt weird!! 

i seriously dont know why since the conversation was alright & we talked every second but my brain was just on autopilot and i didnt have anything going on in my head!!

after talking for a while, i said that i needed to go and made up some bullshit excuse and im very very sure they noticed it was an excuse..! 

i called my friend tom and he was kinda busy calling with his unofficial girlfriend ig? so i asked to join cause i didnt want to be alone.. 

she made this kind of joke that toms talking bad about me which i know isnt true but it just felt so weird!! i just went quiet after that joke and they were prob rlly worried since the conversation was alright.. i just felt so off!!!

after that i just kinda hanged up which is very unusual of me to do!!

so right now..

i seriously felt so off!! the conversation was alright and there were almost no complete silent!!! it was like i was on autopilot but my brain was completely shut down!!

does this happen to you guys? is it just me? am i doing something wrong? 

usually, im a pretty extroverted person! i talk a lot and i make tons of stupid jokes! but this happens sometimes and i really dont understand why these types of situations happen!!

if these stuff happen to you, what do you usually do to help not feel off or weird?