Hypersexuality or yearning ?

i would love fa somebody to spit on me. like, deadass. just like don't get any in my eye, you know? I ain't tryna get an infection or some shit. 

But like also i wanna be the one to dominate/degrade as well so i guess im a switch or whatever you wanna call it.

Like, i got a whole bunch of sexual fantasies that ive been wanting to try but im scared to try them in fear of getting rejected or in trouble. Like, for instance, the maintenance man over where my grandma lives. he not even allat forreal but i want him to fuck me so bad. that nigga like 30-sumn and im 15. thats bad. but like ion give a fuck tho since im a free-spirit thats gon do whatever i please. so if i get him to fuck me that would be great.

and the thing is ion een kno my sexuality. like, in elementary school i dated this crazy-ass white boy but thats pretty much the only relationship that ive had tho cause ion really put myself out there like i should.

any thoughts?