I am so confused about my sexuality rn(rant or yapping idk bro)

I actually don't know if i am just lesbian or not just attracted to any guy

like i don't really feel anything for anyone tbh even tho i had a gf online but it wasn't genuine since it was online and i really didn't knew her but i js loved her too much...more like obsession ...

I used to like a guy when i was in 6th grade before but i felt nothing for him really, it was just more like platonic idk bro but i really favoured that guy but like an idiot i was i confessed to him and got rejected...but when he went away everyone who shipped us asked if i'll miss him but i actually DIDN'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK!!!

then i started questioning when i was in 8th grade and i claimed myself as bisexual and i opened up to my mom...she was js like "being bi is only js for trans ppl and you might be LESBIAN" and SHE IGNORED THE WHOLE CONVO LIKE IT WAS NOTHING

now currently my bestie has a crush on some joker ass dude and she TOLD THIS FUCKING THING AFTER 3 YEARS AND I WAS CRINGING THE WHOLE MOMENT DEAR GOD😭😭😭

even tho many ppl are having crushes or partners i don't even have a freaking celebrity crush or even leave a fictional crush...PLUS I AM ONLY WATCHING GAY MEN KISS

i don't feel anything plus i can't imagine myself being with a girl irl even though i want to have a gf but i can't even bring myself to talk to anyone in my class plus THIS IS INDIA BRO BEING QUEER IS RARE CASE AF(idk?)

SO THIS LONG ASS BLOG IS TOO LONG AND IDK AND I AM SO CONFUSED RN I MIGHT BE AROACE?? tbh i don't really care anymore js someone guide me or something

I might be a sadistic and emotionless girl <3

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13 hours ago (edited) Report

your fellow indian is back again

and NO, BEING QUEER IS NOT RARE IN INDIA AND PPL ARE BEING MORE AND MORE OPEN AND NORMAL ABOUT IT

i know you may feel like you need to figure your sexuality out rn because everyone else seems confident about theirs, but thats really not the case. in fact, many of the ppl around you who strongly claim to be straight/queer are themselves not completely sure or comfortable talking about the confusion. i myself spent all my life claiming to be absolutely straight; although gradually (for years) i began growing interests and attraction towards those of my sex too. but i was still unsure and couldnt possibly imagine having a gf irl, though i kinda had one online when i was younger. i didnt show my confusion to anyone else, and just continued considering myself straight. but then things came to a head on new year's day this year, when i called my (the-then) bestie up and came out as bi. and now, im perfectly okay with having a male/female partner, even irl (though when considering long-term/lifetime, i still consider my partner to be male).

so honestly, its totally okay to be confused at this age and its absolutely normal. by the time youd become an adult, you would become much surer of who you are, not only in terms of sexuality, but in other aspects as well :)

alya

15 hours ago (edited) Report

U might be stright and not attracted to men u see in ur life becuse there all ugly(maybe)or u might aswell be bisexesual idk

i don't like any existing men irl gng its more like "eww guys" or sum shit and i don't think i even like men i am so sure i ain't straight