i am SO lesbian

i have this indescribable feeling towards just being lesbian.

i have this feeling ive never felt for men, i just understand women so well, they make me so happy, and i cant describe the feeling?? its like rage without the angry part like rage makes me stim but so does this?? its a little confusing cause ive had so many relationships and ive only felt this way for one (my one happy lesbian relationship :sob:) idk my brain is weirddugh

(idk if you could tell but im still figuring things out)