i can barely eat

okay so my bigbacked-ness has been halted by a terrible event 

I’ve had stomach problems for months now, I think since July. It’s been ever since I kind of had an eating disorder, ate a 715 calorie chocolate bar and nothing else for a day, and then had the worst diarrhoea of my life. And then after that I had constipation for almost a month straight. Saying that so if anyone tries to cancel me I’ve said everything before they did. 

I think ever since that time I’ve been eating slightly less than I should and my stomach has shrunk due to that. I can’t really eat as much as I used to due to my stomach shrinking. I can’t even fully eat a box of chips without getting dizzy, and I can’t even eat a few slices of pizza without gagging

And I’m pretty sure I have stomach problems right now, probably more constipation since my stomach is hurting, so I can’t eat as much. It’s really annoying because I want to eat a lot and I love food but I just don’t have an appetite whatsoever. 

I’m not dying of anorexia or anything, I think if I have any eating disorder it’ll be ARFID mainly due to the fact that I am an incredibly picky eater which is one of the reasons why I have such bad stomach problems. Since I’m also anaemic I get really dizzy when I don’t eat. I want to EAT. Funny thing is I ate a full box of lucky charms within a few days last week but I can’t do that anymore. Ugh. At least I’ll get #skinnier