my blogs getting popular never bothered me but when people started treating me like a god or a celebrity i was like. What the fuck is happening
ive always found celebrities to just be normal people. the only difference is that they got popular off of something. oh, and they have crazy amounts of parasocial behavior surrounding them. the amount of people who follow them, talking about them like they're friends or know them to some degree.. no asshole, you don't
parasocial people have always followed me for whatever reason. is it because i look like a certain afro-haired animator on youtube? is it because i'm funny? outspoken? because people see another autistic guy and think "he's doing great, i wanna look up to him?" because i'm a stereotypical "older brother figure?" because i like a lot of cool stuff? because drama follows me?
eh, i don't exactly like that last reason. i think the holy rollers of social media love to preach about stopping drama and then continue it for whatever reason. figures, everyone's guilty of it. some just more than others.
it makes me glad i've never shown more than half of my face, honestly. it's a running joke, if you see my whole face it's in the worst quality possible and one pixel makes up for a fourth of my face; or if it's in a better quality, it's cropped halfway. but i honest to god think that if someone [especially multiple people] had my face, who KNOWS how that shit could blow up. i'm not ugly or anything, i've been told by multiple people [but especially my fiancee] that i'm handsome, i just think it could spawn something that does more harm than good. god imagine if the lookmaxxers come after me lmao "YOUR EYES ARE SLIGHTLY DOWNTURNED YOU SHOULD KILL YOURSELF NOW!!!!"
i used to think i was hella ugly and that was why i hid my face, but now i just do it because i realize it's the internet and i don't have to show anyone. no matter how popular i am or get. but i'll show it to wifey because i love the idea of them peppering their screen in kisses pretending it's me. <3
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Purpleguy
I feel the same as you. To be honest, these days being famous doesn’t seem like such a good thing anymore; the moment you make the slightest mistake, people are all over you, slagging you off just for a minor slip-up. It’s as if you’d committed a massacre or something.lol
RedCarpet
I could never wrap my head around the whole parasocial thing. Do people not understand that media put out on the internet for everyone to see isn't specifically meant for them? That despite them seeing the "celebrity", the celebrity doesn't see them back? Famous people ain't fuckin Santa Claus, nor are they the Big Friendly Giant (Actually, I'd like to argue at least thirty percent are not friendly at all). I wanna put myself out there and become known and shit, but having people obsess over me scares me lmao