I fall so easy for sweet words

I really wish I could just not get swept up in compliments as much as I do

Sometimes, I really just, give too much of everything, 

and a single little crumb feels like everything and I treasure it and I look inside to see it's nothing

If there was an easy way to understand what words were empty and what words meant something that wasn't based on my own feelings, would that really make a difference?

I let myself be tricked because I think it will make me easier to love

I let myself be dumb so you can be smart, and I don't think it's any good to keep doing it.

I get told to stop being, 'too kind,' to stop treating things with grace, like everything is genuine, and I still end up hoping its real. Usually a skeptic person, skepticism is nothing to me when my glasses are tinted pink.

I let myself be a backup, I let myself be a comforter, a cushion, because it's better than being nothing, but really, maybe being nothing to someone is better than that.

I'm an idiot for letting myself get squished on, like it's something I don't know. 

I still hope I get treated with kindness, I know I deserve softness like every other person, like what I try so much to give

I know, I know, I know I can get to feel safe, and soft, and loved

just that a lot of the time I end up holding nothing instead