i feel like i wasted my opportunities

a long, long time ago i made signalwave. one of my albums blew up on youtube and i feel like a squandered the opportunity? i couldve kept putting out albums and albums but instead i did what i actually enjoyed, which was making different things, and i ended up essentially having a rise an fall in popularity. i dont think ill get as many views as i used to under the name i used to use, i feel washed up 

why is it such a crime to want to have your art appreciated by someone who isnt you? i expressed the same sentiments to my other friends who make music and i was told to just "make albums for yourself." if i wanted to make music for myself i wouldnt put it out anywhere. why would anyone put anything out if they didnt want to have it looked at? it feels disingenuous and fake to receive that as a response

i feel like wasted potential due to what could've been my big break. i don't think anyone really likes the things i make now, and that making another album is a waste of time at this point. maybe im disingenuous

i will say, youtube is the best place to post stuff. even if it gets one view,  I'd rather have an audience of 1 who really like what i do than feel how i feel now

but everything's whatever