I HATE MY PPHHHHOONNNNEEEEEEEE AUGHHHHHHH

over-dramatic title alert!!

okay, so my phone has gotten on my nerves ever since i was finally allowed to have one. its kinda weird... you beg for something and then it becomes the bain of your existence. 

ANYWAY! what do i do about this??

it has me sucked in to where i cant do alot of my school work. it makes me annoyed because i just want to have fun and be present in a irl situation and then i reach for my phone like a BUM!!! the software is going out of date next year... which is rapidly approaching. idk what that means for the phone but...

the only thing thats stopping me from just getting rid of it and using just my computer or television is...

spotify

texts

thats it. thats literally it. 

i was thinking about giving my friends my personal email so i could text them from my computer, but who am i kidding? i dont wanna make people do all that just to text ME?? so i tried to connect my phone to my computer, which worked briefly! but i missed texting in a groupchat... which i couldnt do on my computer. nor could i see photos, pictures, or stickers or send emojis that werent emoticons. 

as for spotify, i have a 2012 ipod nano that still works! im just a lazy bum who doesnt like to put mp3s on it (which actually takes a long time.... and its annoying). it also runs out of battery very quickly, which makes road trips or longer events harder. (yes! ive stuck out a roadtrip with just the ipod. it wasnt that bad i just wish i didnt have to keep it on the portable charger the whole time.)

sooooooooo should i get a flip phone? or would that just result in me being obsessed with that? and just be drawn to that instead of my regular one. ive been looking at other dumb phones too, like mock blackberrys (which i am actually in love with their design). but i am worried ill just text on that during events, and not be able to quit it (like how i am right now).

OR should i just go without the phone? it doesnt sound too bad. i like to re-read books, doodle, and walk around and wander whenever im at some place, so i wont be totally bored. i just get itchy to GO DO something, yknow? but my phone has been a sorry replacement for the something want to do. 

yesterday i spent alot of time on my phone and asked myself "what am i doing this for?" especially because i had some family over but i was up in my room on my phone. super lame, i know. 

i feel like i need to finally do something about this. i keep walking in circles and ive been saying how much i hate it for 2 years, but ive never actually done anything about it. so now what?

- texas, 10, 4, 26