I HAVE A STUPID FUCKASS STYE ON MY EYE

I'm actually so fucking annoyed right now. I have a stye on eye and it hurts so bad and its swollen and its making me look so fucking ugly. Like, I haven't cried over me thinking I'm ugly in like 3 years but this stupid goddamn stye almost made me cry last night cause its making me look so ugly. I'm also pretty sure I almost had my first panic attack last night. I was literally sitting on the toilet, doing my business, and all of the sudden it felt like I just couldn't breath. I lowkey thought I was dying for a moment before I realized it might just be a panic attack so I honestly just ignored it and went about my business and it went away. I was still really shaky afterwards but no longer felt like I was about to die, so I guess that's a good thing at least. And the timing of it was really ironic, cause literally earlier that day, I was talking to my sister and was telling her that I think I might have some type of anxiety disorder and also said that I hope I don't end up having panic attacks and then that happened. I should've knocked on wood. Does anybody else know that myth where your supposed to knock on wood after saying something like that so you don't jinx yourself? My mama does it a lot. Back on the original topic, I really hope this stye goes away soon and doesn't turn into an infection cause I really don't wanna have to deal with that. The swelling has gotten better, it even looks better than it did just this morning and way better than it did yesterday. Okay, anyways, I think that's it for now. I apologize for this being kinda long but I hope everyone's having an amazing and wonderful day or night!!

(Please ignore any spelling and/or grammar mistakes. Also, I hate how stye and eye rhyme. It makes me sound stupid when I say i have a stye on my eye. It makes me sound like Dr. Seuss and I fucking hate it.)