i love him too much

i feel so terrible. We almost broke up last night. Why cant i just change? What am I doing wrong? Please don't leave me, I'll do more than those who want you. Please I can't do this without you. The thought of you loving someone else hurts me so much. Because the love I bear you is so great. It breaks my heart when I see you slowly lose spark in our relationship. Please don't leave me, I lose so much already. I lost my past friends, never experienced my father's love, I can't lose you too. Because you matter so much to me, you're my whole life. I'll show you how much I love you, care for you, reciprocate more than anyone. I'll swallow my pride, as long as you come home to me and your heart is in my keeping like how mine is with yours. I'll suck it up, my insecurities, thoughts that'll destroy us both. I'll bear everything, please don't leave me. I feel so empty, lifeless, so hollow. But you changed that, you're the light that drags me out of the darkness. You give me hope, in myself, in everything. I need you, every day, every sleepless nights. I love you so much, too much more than anyone, more that I love myself.

I'll change, whatever, however you want me to. I love you so much. Tears keep pooling in my eyes, they can't help but flow. My mind, clouded, unable to focus, it only thinks of you. My heart, shattering into a million pieces. But I'll pick them up piece by piece, even if they prick my palm like glass shards, mold them together again for you. Please accept it, it may not be perfect and full like what the others are offering you, but please don't give up on it, on us.