i think the internet is ruining my life

16-OCT-2026

PRESENT DAY...ha ha ha...! PRESENT TIME, ha ha!

my vision is getting blurrier nowadays

theres always a screen less than a foot in front of me, the entire time im awake

i use my laptop to study then all my spare time is spent on a phone

the hours away from tech exist but theyre too sparse to matter

ive started struggling to read road signs

i dont do anything in real life

all my friends and hobbies are online

i barely exist outside my house. im 20 but i have the social life of an introverted middle schooler.

the screen is more real to me than what exists beyond it 

but when that isnt enough, i have nowhere to turn to

my life is just online profiles and DMs.

when i die and my life flashes before my eyes, how much of it is going to be the youtube shorts feed?

when i die i'll just be an almost-dropout who couldnt do anything on her own adn the funeral will be an awkward obligation for most

my parents dont know anything about me. i never even told them i (used to) have spotify.

and the mark i've left on the internet will be brushed over with new users and trending content

my friends will eulogize me with a string of words on discord

i want to be in the real world, but all i've known is on the internet

im only as real as html code.