i’m going crazy

so i have a heart condition and my mom used to have hormonal cancer and being on testosterone increases the chances of heart issues AND me getting hormonal cancer obviously and since im the only biological female in my family besides my mom i could possibly get hormonal cancer if it’s genetic but we aren’t sure so there’s a very big chance that i wont be able to ever medically transition🥲🥲 im not sad or mad about it but i know one day soon its all gonna hit me and im gonna have a mental breakdown