i'm in love #ew

I want to preface this by stating that i haven't had a crush since 4th grade and im a senior in highschool so this is a pretty big moment for me.

Also i haven't been on here because of school and stuff but i want to be more active again.

Anyways i met this guy second week of school and at first i found him incredibly annoying because he would keep trying to make conversation. and i know that sounds mean but it's legit second period i hate mornings so sue me.

I remember complaining about him to my friends immediately after and we all just kind of brushed it off. Until i started thinking about him outside of school.

While i was getting ready my mind would randomly start wondering if he was gonna talk to me again and during school id catch myself looking for him in the hallways. After another week it got worse and im pretty sure i like this guy. but now he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

I guess he caught on to how distant i was and decided to lay off which sucks now because i want him to talk to me again. 

As im typing this out now and i'm both giddy and confused. I had kinda assumed this was a proximity thing and i was just a weirdo who couldn't be around guys, but this is so different.

Theres not really much else to say, we kinda just do our own thing and while i crave his attention i understand why he's keeping his distance. 

moral of the story, dont be awkward and shy like me. 

Besides the fact i needed to post something here because i need something to do other than school work, i was also looking for some advice on what to do. 

I want to talk to him but either there's nothing i can really say to him or i just end up freaking out and keeping my mouth shut. 

If anyone has good conversations starters please send them my way cause i'm struggling here.