Introducing me

Yes I know I already had an introduction blog stfu I anxiously delete things. 

Firstly hello I'm Mj I was born in 2008 and and I am currently 18383747 years old... Or it feels that way at least. I'm a male, use he/him pronouns and I'm bisexual. 

Id personally consider myself to be unaffiliated when it comes to political shit and mostly connect with anarchist ideologies. FUCK THE GOVERNMENT is what I'm basically saying. 

Now then let move on to hopes and dreams for a future we may never see because the world is going to shit. 

I'm very much an adventure kind of guy. I find joy in just simply being outdoors and near water, mostly near water rn because it's hot af where I live (thank you global warming..) so I want to spend my free time exploring the world, finding beautiful places and photographing it. Through my life I want to travel through all the continents and visit almost every country I can, of course excluding the ones where I wouldnt be safe. I want to climb mountains, dive into deep waters, and explore all sorts of places. 

If I were to ever become rich id want to firstly fund organisations that fight against global warming and damage to the earth and also donate to a bunch of charities. Id also want to start my own animal rehabilitation centers all over the world and try to shut down unethical zoos and aquariums. I believe the first step in getting earth back to its healthy self is to PROTECT it and it's inhabitants. 

For my future I honestly haven't given it much thought. I thought id be dead by now so I really don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know what id enjoy doing and I don't know what Im good at either. I like the idea of being able to have a lot of free time like weekends off and holidays and such and I think id enjoy working night shift or second shift. Ive considered the medical field and honestly I'm still considering it but I don't know if id be able to fully commit to that level of schooling with how I am now. 

What I have thought about is where I wanna live. Aright so I'm down to two options. I either want to live near the ocean like right beside it and own a little fishing boat to catch my own food or I want to live in the middle of nowhere in the mountains with a few fields that I can plant and grow my own food. I want to be self sustainable so I want to build up solar pannels or a wind turbine and live off the grid basically. I like the idea of having a variety of animals and I'll probably rescue a lot over the years. I do want at least one big fluffy dog that I can spoil cus they're just so stinking cute. 

I do like the idea of having a big family but honestly I don't know if id be good at that. I think for now I just want to earn some friends and sort of create that kind of family. 

I'm a collector and when I get money I wanna start collecting all sort of things. Mostly like physical media but also action figures and dolls and stuffed animals and toys. 

Ok moving on from that to a few of my favorite things.

I love physical media. I have a lot of DVDs and I want so much more to the point of completely filling book shelves with them. I occasionally enjoy reading and I like in depth fiction books more than the classics thou I do have a few classics.  Buckle your seatbelts cus I'm bout to drop every single one of my favorite TV shows and movies

TV shows first

• Supernatural
• Psych
• Criminal minds
• Hawaii five-0 
• The mentalist
• Brooklyn nine nine
• NCIS
• Legends of tomorrow
• Grimm
• Chuck
• Gravity falls
• Octonauts
• My baby sitters a vampire
• Adventure time
• Constantine
• Henry danger
• Loki
• Merlin
• House
• The night shift
• Haven
• I'm not ok with this
• The end of the fucking world
• Shameless
• Skins UK
• Teen wolf
• Sherlock
• Er 
• Doctor who

• Stay 
• Speak
• Beautiful boy
• Fight club
• Fracture
• Donie Darko
• Sleepers
• Half Nelson
• I saw the tv glow
• Lady bird
• Manic 
• Mid 90s
• Whiplash
• The basketball diaries
• To the bone
• Thirteen 
• The perks of being a wallflower
• The Florida project
• Girl interrupted
• Big time adolescence
• A mother's nightmare
• Jet boy
• King of Staten island
• Lars and the real girl
• The virgin suicides
• The goldfinch
• Secretary
• Project hail Mary
• The Martian
• The maze runner (all) 
• Inception
• Beyond a reasonable doubt
• Catch me if you can
• The matrix
• Avatar
• Gone in sixty seconds
• Holes
• I am number 4
• Love and monsters
• The signal
• The day after tomorrow
• Source code
• Slingshot
• Limitless
• The giver
• Ready player one
• The hunger games
• Marvel movies
• Coraline 
• Mr magoriums wonder emporium
• Miss peregrine's home for peculiar children 
• Rise of the guardians
• Spy kids
• The spiderwick chronicles
• The house with a clock in its walls

Anyway continuing on.. My favorite colors are red and blue like spiderman my favourite number is seven and despite my distain for the number three I tend to do things in sets of it. My favorite animal is probably like a dog idk haven't given much thought to it. My favorite season is winter and my favorite holiday is Halloween. 

Moving on to more personal stuff

I smoke I do drugs I'm trying not to drink though. I was previously sober for around a year and a half from alcohol but my mom just made me drink some so yea. I have pretty bad depression and suicidal thoughts I've probably tried to kill myself about 14 times or so and yea I'll probably try again. Ive got really bad anxiety and I over think every little thing and I go over all of my screw ups constantly. I have panic attacks a lot and pretty bad insomnia. I probably have sort of mood or personality disorder and autism but I don't go to the doctor that much so it's not like I'm going to be diagnosed. What I am diagnosed with is MDD and anxiety but we went over that already. MDD stands for major depressive disorder I got diagnosed at 14 at like my first appointment so I guess that says smth abt how bad I am. What can I say thou I'm just quirky it's where I get my humor from fr that and I was touched as a child. Lol. 

Well I think that's it for now. While you're here why don't you share a fun fact abt yourself